You are alone. You are not dating anyone seriously. Sometimes you spend your evenings with one, then with another, but nothing sensible comes out of it.After you spend more and more time and energy on a certain number of people, with each failure there is more frustration.
And you decide to just take a break from everything. Your heart needs rest, despite the fact that it wants to fall in love again and again. You are well and alone, without thinking about how to find someone. You are free like a bird. You are so open to the world.
Yes, you are open. But is this really the case?
After all this time alone you became impregnable. You protect your heart. You have walls erected, but you so want someone to destroy them.
But the more you meet, the more you step back. You think that there is already no one for you. No one has yet caused you the spark that once was. You do not even know what it is like to fall in love with someone, you have already forgotten these feelings.
Do you think, maybe it's because you are tired of loving too much and too often the wrong people?
And you start looking for Him in the wrong places. You start thinking, “Maybe this one? Or this one? The game begins, and then you exhale. You think that you are not lucky in love, that this is simply not for you.
It seems that everyone has it except you.
You become the third extra in company with friends in pairs. This is a strange new role for you, and it is as stereotypical as it is drawn by social networks. Most friends are married or in a relationship, and some may say: “Come on, catch up, it's time for you to get married!”. Yes, it's easy to say when you are doing well on a love front.
You have already passed that period of stormy bachelor life, when your “busy” friends envied you. Empty relationships, ragged SMS, one-night sex have drained you. You don't want to live like that anymore. And that's fine. You are human You are a person who wants to be respected, wants to feel love and intimacy.
Therefore you are waiting. You think. Thinking. Rethink. You wonder what it would be if, or what could be with one of those you already know. But this does not change the fact that you are alone.And you must recognize it and understand that it is because of your walls.
These are walls built by many people over the years of your experience. And you wonder how you let them get so tall. And now you sit patiently and try to disassemble these walls brick by brick. This needs to be done in order to grow, to understand yourself, how you can become the person you want. Because only then can you destroy these walls.Because it is you who prevent you from finding love. It is you yourself.